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July25,2010:: I'll get to the top of my mountain. For a long time, it wasn't even in view, now..I'm close enough to smell the fresh air falling from it. I'm so close. This little set back I had only made me pull faster, & climb harder"

Last night Rachel & I sat outside my house for about 2 hours talking. I brought up my journals & how they have been my therapeutic comfort for the past few years & it got me curious to read again. This post above.. filled my heart with joy today. I remember writing it. I had so much faith, but still felt broken. I new it was possible to get out of the hole I was stuck in, but was determined to do so. There are so many other trials in this world that people face every day that have been harder than mine. But it doesn't make me any less strong. My trial was given to me because it's me. Our father in Heaven knew this would be hard for me, & he made it possible for me to conquer it. I conquered it. For a time, I let it conquer me. I got lost, & stuck in the one place I never wanted to be. I thought by the time I had turned 19 that I had conquered my "one lifes trial". Boy was I wrong. Still to this day I may not have even encountered my "lifes trial". But I guess that's something I won't know until it hits.

It all happens for a reason. I used to be friends with this guy that didn't believe me at all when I said that. He believed things just happened to happen. WRONG. Up til this point in my life, I can pinpoint (most) every purpose for every "happening".

Life is good now. I am happy. I am a happy girl! My brother,sister in law & babies are coming this week. I have my last day of my horrid job next week, head off to lake powell for the weekend with all the KERNS, then teach swim lessons for a few weeks, have my last dose of DISNEYLAND & the beach for a year & a half..then head to the Provo MTC on August 17th. Holy love. I am in love with my life.

&&&& I NOW HAVE 20/20 VISION! Thank you LASIK :)

Easter Sunday

I had an amazing Easter Sunday. I am so grateful for my brother Derek & his family & my other brother Evan. They are seriously the best brothers I could have ever asked for. I’ve already begun to cry just thinking about how much I am going to miss them when I move. When I first moved up here to Utah, I was going through a rough time. Evan used to get phone calls from me quite often, crying & needing him to come over & be with me.. Derek received phone calls asking for blessings and was always more than grateful to give them. They never judged me, or bad talked me about my decisions and always tried to help me out in the best ways they could. Derek & Emily took me into their family & I grew such a strong bond to the both of them.

Derek & I never really had the strongest relationship; now he’s one of my best friends. He has taken such good care of me while I’ve been up here. He’s helped me with school, money, friends, & although he may not know it; my testimony. He has given me words of wisdom that has stuck with me and has helped me to grow in so many ways.The same goes with Emily. She doesn’t feel like a sister in law to me; she feels like a sister. Someone at church today asked her if I was her sister and I nodded not even thinking about her being an in law. When she said I was Derek’s sister, I had to remind myself that she hasn’t always been my sister. I am so grateful for that family. Their two beautiful children are my world. Leaving them for 18 months will be one of the hardest things to do. They bring so much joy to my life. When Baby Taylor kisses me, I feel like everything in my life is okay. No problems, no worries. & Cohens smile..can light up the world. That kid is going to be a heartbreaker! He is so handsome.

Evan is by far one of my best friends as well & I am so thankful for him. He is the ideal big brother that looks out for me. HE hates boyfriends haha He has been so protective over me & I love it. Both my brothers were moved out by the time I began dating & I love that the “over protective big brother” is still around. He has helped me grow so much while up here and often made me realize a lot about myself.

Today was probably my most favorite day out of all the days I’ve spent in Utah. I spent the whole day with my family, and I got to focus on the resurrection and atonement more than usual. I am so grateful for this church & cannot wait to preach the word to all the people of Argentina. My mission call has been the greatest blessing in my life. When time gets rough & my mind begins to wander back to the past, I think of the people in Argentina. I think about their lives now, and what they will be like once they have the church in their lives. Hopefully I’ll be able to make that difference. I’ll pray each day to prepare the people for the word.

Happy Easter Everyone. I hope you realize all that you have!

A-Z day

I most defintetly stole this from Shelby. It's just an easier way to blog when there's too much to write about.

Age: 21

Bed size: Twin right now. Next week? QUEEN!

Chore you hate: I don't really hate cleaning.. I do however hate doing other peoples dishes.

Dogs: Belly baby! pure black pom.

Essential start of your day: pee.

Favorite color: Mustard. mm yellow :)

Gold or silver: I wish I cold pull off gold, but I can't so I like silver

Height: 6 ft. If you want to get real technical, 5'11 3/5.

Instruments I play (or have played): I used to play the piano which I'll be taking up again this summer. I also did the drums for a small while.

Job title: Leasing Consultant.

Kids: 4 or 6. Have to be even at Disneyland.

Live: Currently, Provo, Utah. Next week; Las Vegas, Nevada. my home & love :)

Mom's name: Sandi

Nickname: Keno, hermana haha

Overnight hospital stays: I don't think I have ever stayed overnight.

Pet peeve: When 22 year old guys from my apartment complex get their moms to call me because I'm not telling them what they want to hear.

Quote from a movie: " I'm suicidal."

"fill out these forms"

-It's kind of a funny story.

Right or left handed: Right.

Siblings: I have 2 older brothers, 1 older sister, 1 younger sister, 1 sister in law & 1 brother in law.

Time you wake up: usually around 7

Underwear: boy shorts.

Vegetables you dislike: all?

What makes you run late: i don't run late. That's not classy.

X-rays you've had done: Teeth.

Yummy food you make: Taco soup is what everyone asks me for.

Zoo animal: Penguin!

Happy Friday everyone!

My lovely Mission call, in SPANISH!

Ever have that feeling that something bad is going to happen, because everything in your life is way too good? That’s how I feel. I’m scared, but pretty confident that the Lord is going to protect me these next couple of months. I have been called to the Neuquen Argentina mission & have been called to report on August 17^th of 2011. I will be entering the Provo MTC a full time sister missionary to learn the beautiful language Spanish so that I may teach the people of Argentina! I have never been so blessed in my life.

So, many people (including myself) were confused when my mission call came to me in Spanish. Let me explain. Upon submitting my papers, there was a check box in which you would like your call to be printed in. Being Kendall Kerns, I may have over looked that one question, thinking it was asking what language I would like to learn. So I clicked Spanish. I did say I didn’t know any Spanish, but did also ask for it to be printed in Spanish. Yea… I did that.

SO, MORAL OF THE STORY: Read through your mission papers THOROUGHLY.

4 months is a long time to wait. I was anticipating to be gone by June, but obviously the Lord thinks otherwise. I’m excited for a long wait. My previous plan was to stay in Utah until about 2-3 weeks before I report, then move home. My new plan is to be moving home the end of the month & begin working at the Venetian again. It’s sad to leave my current job because I absolutely love it, but it is much more logical to go home. I won’t be paying for rent or food, & my mom can keep a better eye on my spending haha. Pathetic on my part, I know. My Venetian job also hired me on with a pay raise of 2 dollars. Which is 3 ½ dollars more than my current job. It’s logical. I’m excited to move home, but hating the wait! I've never been a patient girl. So I guess this is my first lesson?

ps. Really cool fact.

Angela Otis

This woman guessed the exact city in Argentina before I opened my call. It was so not coincidence that she of all people guessed it! Love her!

I'm going on a mission!

I CAN FINALLY SAY IT!

I AM GOING ON A MISSION!!!!!

MY PAPERS HAVE BEEN SUBMITTED!

I'LL WRITE MORE LATER

:)

Girlfriends? What happened to those?

I just wanted to upload some fun fotos of me & a few of the SHORT SUPPLY OF GIRLFRIENDS I HAVE! Is something wrong with me? Miriam & I were wanting to watch Charly today, but couldn't think of any girls we could call to ask if they had it. Why do I not have any girlfriends? I have like..3..maybe 4. I've never had a group of girlfriends & I am sick of it! Guys, you are not always fun! I was looking at my little sisters facebook page, & I am so stinkin jealous of her friends! Her & 4 other girlfriends are constantly together & they are so cute. I have NEVER had that..I've always had guy friends which can still be fun, but I want that girl time. Miriam & I have already begun to branch out in Relief Society..bleh..but we're getting there. We already have 2 girlfriends that like us! haha & they are super rad. We're not FB friends yet so I guess it's not official. But they are rad. One is a hair stylist & has cool color hair. They are pretty much identical to Miriam & I. Except the brunette is shorter in their case. The blonde is tall. Miriam & I are both tall.

Other than that, LIFE IS SO STINKIN GREAT RIGHT NOW!!!!!! I could do an entire page of exclamation marks right now to show my happiness for life at this moment. I am so excited, & grateful & happy! & healthy! I had a few doctors appointments this past week & I am proud to say all my doctors told me that I am perfectly healthy. I am doing all the right things with all parts of my body. How great is it to hear that they have no advice to give you because you're doing just fine? It's fantastic! I'm proud of myself. Also, I have bought many cute accessories recently & I have my eye on some new make up I'll try not to buy on Monday. Sephora, how I love you.

Have a great week!

Cooler Couleur - Full Version

BEFORE YOU LISTEN TO THIS SONG

TURN YOUR VOLUME UP

STAND UP

GET HYPED

ghetto video, just listen & love.