Last night Rachel & I sat outside my house for about 2 hours talking. I brought up my journals & how they have been my therapeutic comfort for the past few years & it got me curious to read again. This post above.. filled my heart with joy today. I remember writing it. I had so much faith, but still felt broken. I new it was possible to get out of the hole I was stuck in, but was determined to do so. There are so many other trials in this world that people face every day that have been harder than mine. But it doesn't make me any less strong. My trial was given to me because it's me. Our father in Heaven knew this would be hard for me, & he made it possible for me to conquer it. I conquered it. For a time, I let it conquer me. I got lost, & stuck in the one place I never wanted to be. I thought by the time I had turned 19 that I had conquered my "one lifes trial". Boy was I wrong. Still to this day I may not have even encountered my "lifes trial". But I guess that's something I won't know until it hits.
It all happens for a reason. I used to be friends with this guy that didn't believe me at all when I said that. He believed things just happened to happen. WRONG. Up til this point in my life, I can pinpoint (most) every purpose for every "happening".
Life is good now. I am happy. I am a happy girl! My brother,sister in law & babies are coming this week. I have my last day of my horrid job next week, head off to lake powell for the weekend with all the KERNS, then teach swim lessons for a few weeks, have my last dose of DISNEYLAND & the beach for a year & a half..then head to the Provo MTC on August 17th. Holy love. I am in love with my life.
&&&& I NOW HAVE 20/20 VISION! Thank you LASIK :)
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ReplyDeleteThat is pretty much all I have to say. Love you.