Day 2

A really good memory

My first year of college was spent up at Badger Creek Idaho with 14 other girls & 15 other guys on a ranch. This picture was taken in the kitchen on the ranch. Joanne, Emily,Averi, Cory, Zakk & myself. It was one of the funnest/funniest nights of my life. I have no idea what was wrong with us, but we were sure on something. We spent the whole entire night in the kitchen taking pictures, sliding around on cookie trays, &..basically doing nothing. I have no idea why is was so fun, but it was.

ookay, why not.30 days

Bonjour les amis

1.I don't go through drive thrus by myself.

2.I own a beautiful canon 7D.

3.I'm obsessed with the series friends.

4.I am very dedicated to my journal writing.

5.I'm not a fan of chocolate.

6.I have a twitch that appears as a wink.

7.I could eat airheads, BIG cheese its & cereal every day for the rest of my life.

8.I love baking.

9.I like attention, but blush very easily when I receive it.

10.It's VERY easy to make me blush.

11.Mary Poppins & chitty chitty bang bang are my all time favorite movies.

12.I have a passion for photography.

13. I've had the same best friend for 16 years.

14. Listening to the piano is one of my only hidden comforts.

15. I'm doing this "challenge" as a way to get me to keep up with my blog for once.

Post 30 days in a row:

Day 01 - A recent photo of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02 - A really good memory.

Day 03 - A picture of you and your craziest friend

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn't have

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you've been to

Day 06 - A picture that shows your true self

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 11 - Your celebrity crush

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of something you hate

Day 14 - Picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - Someone you would want to switch lives w/ for one day and why

Day 17 - Your favorite song

Day 18 - A picture of the cast of your favourite show.

Day 19 - A picture of someone you miss

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22 - A picture that confuses you

Day 23 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 24- A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 25 - Picture of yourself and a family member

Day 26 - A picture of something that means alot to you.

Day 27 - A picture of something your afraid of

Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - Who are you?

Shuffle me Ipod

So I saw someone do this on their blog awhile back & really liked the idea. & since it sort of goes along with my last post, I though it was quit appropriate. So I am going to go to my songs on my ipod, & simply push..shuffle. Each song MOST LIKELY will have a memory behind it. Either a person or just a certain event. I'm excited :) Here we go.

Ipod shuffle 10

1.EFY-Stand in the light: haha Jake! I was absolutely in love with this kid Jake at my first year of EFY in Provo. I still remember he escorted me 4 times that week & every time he escorted me, oh his muscles.. they were nice. & he was hot. Did he ask for my number at the end of the week? Nay. He did not because I still looked like hagrid at that age. But he was a good memory.

2. Usher-Make love in the club: Holy crap. Danielle Whittle. We went on a cruise our senior year & I swear on my life, every time we turned the music channel on in our room, this song came on. I didn't like this music at the time so I HATED it so much.

3.Across the Universe: Let it be: Sarah Passey. When this first movie came out, we saw the previews for it & loved it. We were so into that "style" so we were stoked to see it. Both our parents told us that we shouldn't see it because the whole movie is pretty much based around drugs & sex..But we rebeled & saw it anyway & ended up leaving early because we HATED it. I ended up watchign the whole movie later, & fell in love with it & is now in my top 5.

4.Weezer-Island in the Sun: Summer. I'm not sure which one though. With Wes. I hung out with Wes a lot that summer & we listened to Weezer a lot. As simple as that.

5. Chicago-Sufjan Stevens: Austin Dixon & Jesse Buck. Austin introduced Sufjan to me & I LOVED him. Still do, he is an amazing amazing man. & not gay. Anyway, Jesse was convinced that he introduced Sufjan to me & Austin as well..(he really didn't but we'll let him believe he did)

6.Josh Turner- Your man: haha! Courtney. I used to get in bed with her in the morning to wake her up & I would just get really close to her ear & start singing. "let me be your man" in the deepest voice possible. Love it!

7.Jay Sean- Down: Two things. First, Emily. Because when she came down to visit, I was obsessed with this song & she had never heard it before. So therefor, I put it on a lot :) She eventually started to really like it. Second, Danielle & Jordan because when Jordan first moved her, we were like the 3 musketeers & we used to blast this song & dance to it at work while everyone watched us.

8.Lady Gaga- Paparazzi: Frankie Wolfe. We were watching music videos one day & at the beginning of this video, Lady gaga is in bed with some fool & she turns to him & says, "Puss Puss" which we assume means kiss kiss. So every time we'd want a kiss from each other, we'd say Puss Puss.

9.Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- Your guardian Angel: Devon. When he passed away someone dedicated this song to him. Ive heard this song many times before, but never had a meaning til Devon passed. Now it has a completely different meaning.

10.Sheryl Crow- Good is good: Greg Roberts. We were all at Chilis recently actually & this song came on & I wanted to know the title & artist. He has one of those phones that can record the song & tell you what it is by holding the phone up to it. So I got excited & made him go find a speaker. The closest one was the table over & on the ceiling so he struggled to climb on the chairs & table to hold it as close to the speakers as he could! haha good times.

So that was fun. & I only had to skip one song! I skipped one song because it meant absolutely nothing to me. Someone randomly put it on my ipod & it sucks. So yea, there we go.

Songs of my life

I’m not good at blogging. This is my fourth attempt at an introduction, & to be honest, I think it’s the best. I’m not good at words. I’d rather take the words from other artists to explain my life. So that’s what I’ll do now. Each song is dedicated to a certain person or experience. Don't try to guess which one belongs to what, because I can almost guarantee you're wrong. Except for one. That one is pretty easy.

To my past & what I've done.

Where I stood-Missy Higgins

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

To myself; to be strong against the world. Face it, & embrace it.

Details in the fabric-Jason Mraz

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

To him who no matter what, would always be there. I loved your first. & no one can ever take that away.

Warmness on the soul-avenged sevenfold

And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your love's always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

To the addictions people face. I never understood how something could take over your life leaving you feeling helpless & controlled.

Addicted-Kelley Clarkson

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

To my 2 weeks in Vegas & how memories filled my mind at every location.

Adele-hometown glory

Round my hometown
Memories are fresh
Round my hometown
Ooh the people I've met

I like it in the city when the air is so thick and opaque
I love to see everybody in short skirts, shorts and shades
I like it in the city when two worlds collide
You get the people and the government
Everybody taking different sides

To the one I am angry at most. For you who gave me no support when I needed it. For you who didn’t trust me. For you who I do not trust.

Forgotten-avril lavigne

I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me

To the one I can’t seem to let go of. I can’t seem to get you out of my head. I think about you every day. Your family, your life, your thoughts. I can’t let go of your life.

Daniel bedingfield-Sorry

And I've tried to heal the wounds
Make it as if it never was
And I know I've done my best
But I can never heal the scars

To life & what I strive for

Send it on-(lame, I know) Disney friends

A word is just a word
Til you mean what you say
And love isn't love
Til you give it away
We've all gotta give
Yeah something to give
To make a change

Send it on, on and on
Just one that can heal another
Be apart
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts the fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make it strong shine a light and send it on

Just smile and the world
Will smile along with you
That small act of love
That's meant for one will become two
If we take the chances
To change circumstances
Imagine all we can do if we..

Send it on...
There's power in all of the choices we make
So i'm starting now there's not a moment to waste
A words just a word
Til you mean what you say
And love isn't love
Til you give it away

The girl I hope he thinks of me as:

She is love-parachutes

I've been beaten down, I've been kicked around,
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.

Well I had my ways, they were all in vain,
But she waited patiently.
It was all the same, all my pride and shame,
And she put me on my feet.

And when that world slows down, dear.
And when those stars burn out, here.
Oh she'll be here, yes she'll be here,
They call her love, love, love, love, love.

Shes all I need

To the one that makes life matter at all. To him I am me for.

What would you do the time that’s left

will you live it all with no regret

will they say that you loved til your final breath

what will you do with the time that’s left.

what will you do with the time that’s past

when all the pain that seems to last

can you give it to jesus and not look back

what will you do with the time that’s past

what will he say when your time has come and he takes you into his arms of love

with tears in his eyes will he say well done

what will he say when your time has come

To Life:

The Climb: Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb


Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

There. Songs of my life. I’ve taken a big step up from music lately. It’s become a much bigger part of my life. I actually listen to the words now. I feel the emotions behind the artist & I incorporate them into my life. I cant quite describe my life at the moment. It’s way to chaotic, as is everyone else’s lives are. But I can say that I'm tying my best. Im trying every day to be my best. To work to my fullest & live my life the best I can. I’ve learned many lessons these past 13 months. I still have a lot to work on. People to forgive. Memories to forget. Things to let go. At least I can say I’m trying. & more importantly, I can say it’s for me, & no one else.

I've got somethin' new to see

To start out, I just have to say that the thought of having a blog has always been a mystery to me. I thought it was actually a pretty dumb idea and always wondered why people have blogs when they could just have journals like I do. But my awesome friend Jana pointed out a few perks to me that got me thinking into having one a few weeks back. So I thought I'd give it a shot. I can't garuntee I'll keep going with it, but I will sure try!

Let me start out by saying a little about life right now. I'm living in Provo, taking a break from school to earn a little money. I know everyone says that if you take off more than 2 semesters it's hard to get back, but they don't know me. Taking off another semester was not a good idea for me. I've decided, I like school! It keeps me busy & it keeps me working on something. Right now, only working..sucks. I start work every morning at Shelf Relience at 6am & get off at 2. I am home by 230 everyday & what is there to do besides be lazy? Sure, I can work out, write in my awesome blog, or hang out with people..but honestly nothing there shows that Im working for something. I like to work for something. I like to get things done & put my effort into something. It gets my brain working & gets me doing something for myself. So come April, I'll be one happy girl. Busy again. But happy. I want to finish up my associates at UVU after attending BYU-I for a year & a half. it's time for a change again in my life, & this was my change.

The one big thing in my life right now is Charles Franklin Wolfe. I know everyone already knows about all this, so I don't have any fear talking about it. I am completly in love with this boy. When girls I know dream & talk about Collin Farrel & Gerrard Butler, I dream & think about him. He is the first & only boy I have ever said those 3 scary words to. I Love you. It scares me to death that I'm in love. Frankie & I started out...well, hooking up. Not even really dating. It was a summer fling that neither of us saw getting far since I was going to be leaving for school in January. Somewhere along the way, after fights, trials and breaks, we fell in love. Not many people support the fact that we're wrapped around each others fingers, but it is our responsibility to figure out if we're right for each other or not. Not everyone else. I have appreciated the fact that everyone cares about me, but my life, is my life.

I guess that's it for my Day 1 blog. I'll have to look around a little so I can catch up to all the cool things about being a blogger. That's it! Peace.