Don't ever let your prayin' knees get lazy

& LOVE LIKE CRAZY

(go ahead & click it, it'll take you to a handsome man

with a backwards cap, man beard & guitar)

It was an absolute must that I write today because today was FANFREAKINGTASTIC! I didn't have school or work today, so I was able to sleep in til 9, lay in my bed with a bowl of cereal & my dear friend Pandora, go to the temple, meet with my trainer at the gym, get all dolled up to go shopping with Miriam & got a cute skirt, some accessories & some black floral printed tights. Then to end the night right, went to Institute which was JUST the lesson for me. Happy happy day.

So, my title today does have a meaning..I have been listening to this song for the past two days, & it still hasn't gotten old. I am in love with this song. I even have it written on my white board in front of my bed. Don't ever let your prayin' knees get lazy..that is honestly the only way to make it through these lives of ours! Pray, pray & pray some more, because not a single person on this earth can make it on their own. I know I've tried..& it's hard. It doesn't work. Today at the temple, may have been one of the happiest times in my life, because I was able to reflect on my life & really see what I've done to make it better. It's prayer. Praying for guidance, forgiveness, comfort..it's all in there. I'm lovin' life crazzzzyyy!!!

Basement to Roof Access

Glory Glory Hallelujiar. Let me start out by giving a brief description of my last job. I started Shelf Reliance in January of 2010. Hated the job by March 2010. I was up at 5:25 every morning, at work by 6, off at 2, exhausted by 6, in bed by 9/10ish. The owner or our company treated us like slaves, & didn't feel it important we ever had breaks. We were pushed to make numbers, and when numbers were reached, the people that deserved it, didn't recieve a reward. I on the other had, did receive the rewards I didn't deserve. I did the same amount of work as everyone else & had a MUCH better pay. Yea, that's not the usual complaint people have, but it bothered me so much how everyone was treated. I was head supervisor over the "Homeparty" products for Shelf Reliance. When I was first promoted in July, the job was great. I was treated and respected as a supervisor and I was good at my job. Gave it about a month or two, and I was no longer respected. I had no responsibility whatsoever but kept the title and was treated like a child. We were kept in a freezing warehouse, wore gross clothes every day because we got FILTHY, worked with dirty, unrespectful men and had drama like no other.

THANK YOU BLAKE WELLER for loving me.

Back in January I made good friends with the front office guy Blake. He helped me get in my apartment & has helped me so much with everything at the Branbury. When he told me he was leaving, I applied & he put in his good word for me, & I got the job! Here's the jist of my new job.

I'm a leasing consultant,head over marketing, in charge of all onsite ward Bishops scheduling and many other tasks that I still cannot explain haha I actually get to dress up for my job(which I've never done before) & I get to work with all older people; NO DRAMA! I love it. I get to actually talk to people & help them with whatever their needs are at the Branbury. I get to help people figure out housing when they are in a rut like I was when I first moved here. I love my job. I have a lot of responsibility which keeps me busy, and the best part of it all?.... I get to walk across the street to work.

ahh life is great. Funny story though. Day 2 on the job & I got my first tour! 2 guys..with pretty faces & rockin bods, came in & I basically gave them all the details & info on contracts. They asked for a tour, so as I'm taking them out I straight up tell them that they were my first. They were funny about it, teased me a little then we began walking to the "model room" for the tour. I have a master key so when I got to the room & opened it up..IT WAS SOMEONES APARTMENT! Soo embarrassing.. luckily, the guys were cool & just laughed at me...histarically .. goodness gracious my life.

So I've stepped up in life :)

New job, Started school, attending institute, loving life like crazy!

Head over Heels

Last Saturday was a big day for me. Shelbie & I went shopping & I, Kendall Kerns, bought my very first pair of heels. If any of you reading this blog know me, I am tall. A tid but under 6 foot (quote from my recent doctor) So I'm tall, & can be pretty self conscious about it. Not as bad as I used to be, but it still sucks to be standing in a crown of people all under 5'6. So Shelbie & I are at Forever Young, my favorite shoe store, & I see some hot red heels that I had to try on. I put them on & I loved them! I was struttin myself around that store like I was some kind of celebrity til my pathetic side kicked in..

So there's this persooooon I really don't want to be taller than. So I was super nervous to buy them because I know myself & if I ended up being taller than them, I would be so self conscious. But I bought them anyways..Come Sunday.. I wore them; struttin around my ward & was so happy to find that they are perfect! I am no taller than anyone I really care about being taller than. They make me a perfect 6'2 & I am perfectly fine with that. It was fan-freaking-tastic. So, I just want everyone to know that, I Kendall Kerns, own a pair of hot red heels that I love.

ps. Libby & I are going to Vegas this weekend & we will be making an appearance at Stoneys. & I could possibly be in these red heels I so proudly talk about. kay byee :)

Happy Days

Top noter: I've decided to stop the stupid picture thing. I don't like it. I guess I don't have the will power to keep up with something like I thought I did. But, I'm happy to say that it has gotten me to regularly get on here, so I think I'll be able to keep up with that.

Life is so good right now! Except for at work. Since everyone knows I'm leaving next week, they haven't been easy on me. Mainly just one person. & I know it's only because they are sad I'm leaving, but it still sucks. For a couple of days I was worried I made the wrong decision about my job, but thankfully I have a mom who always cheers me up. My plan for the past couple of months is to move home to Vegas in August to start school at UNLV for hospitality, but last week I was so close to just packing up & going. There are so many things keeping me here, but so many things begging for me to go back to Vegas. I miss Vegas so much. Living there. My family, the weather, the comfort, the shopping(lord knows malls suck in Utah!) I really miss it. So often though, I freak myself out about the future & I'm sick of it! She told me to relax, because come August, I may be so in love with life, in Utah at my new job & in school, that I won't wont to leave. & it's true. I never thought I would like Utah the way I do now.

"Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting, that is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow-that is patience.

I promise to start being patient with life. I do not need to stress over the future right now. I'm 21 & don't need to be freaking out about what's going on in August. As long as I do what I need to be doing right now; which is school, church, working & having a 21 year olds life.

I copied this from Shelby Lou's site. I just wanted to post a few loves because life is full of love!

1. I love my music.

2. I love winter clothes. Beanies, scarves, mittens, coats.

3. I love the overly positive people that make up this world.

4. I love laughing hysterically at something that no one else thinks is funny & then see them so suddenly begin to crack up.

5. I love that the world outside my window is pink right now because the sunset is reflecting off the snow.

have a great weekend everyone! I know I will :)

Ps: this is my song for the day. I heard it at work & have been singing it ever since.

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Day 16 - Someone you would want to switch lives w/ for one day and why

There's a few things I need to know that only Lady Gaga can tell me.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Gallon Challenge :) Only, it'll have to be 1% of course.

Day 14 - Picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

I don't care how cliché it is to say I could't imagine life without my mom. She's my best friend.

On a side note; Is the first week of school this stressful for EVERYONE?! I'm going to die early because of all the stress school has brought me. i have anxiety every time I even think about it. It's January..what 12th? & I already feel like I want to drop out just to prove that I won't handle this crap UVU is throwing at me. I would like to punch one of the administration in the face. & then I would drop parking pass permits from 80dolla to 30dolla. Stupid & ridiculous if you ask me. i think I'm ready to just be done with everything. But then again, if I were done with everything, I would be in the same exact boat I was in exactly one year ago today. No school, just working, doing nothing. I've already decided to make that change this year. blah. School can suck it.

Can it be next friday already? Libby & I are going to Vegas, & I'm stoked. I won't be able to go for a long time once I start my new job, so this trip better be well worth it. Peace&blessins chilren. Peace&blessins.

A Picture of something you hate

Stupid in-n-out. It's completely overrated & overpopulated. There hasn't been a single time I;ve lived in Provo, driven by the one one University & not seen a line backed up so far that it begins to wrap around the joint. It's not even good in my opinion. The shakes; yea, they're alright because they're ice cream & shakes can't go wrong. Get over it people, it's slightly less money than 5 guys & worst quality.

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

It's very possible that I may have an addiction. It all started when I saw that they were 8/$1.00 at Maceys. From there, I was a goner. For my birthday, my lovely roommates decorated my room with a bajillion balloons, streamers, & 8 dollars worth of airheads. That's equivalent to 64 airheads! It was fantastic. They hid them throughout all my room so I was finding them a week later. Needless to say, they are gone; & went pretty fast. But to my defense, there wasn't a single person that entered my room & didn't leave without one or two airheads.

New year

My one & only resolution of 2011;

To make 2011 the best year of my life

Day 9 of this year has come & I can say, so far I've made that happen. 2010 was hard; as it has been for all. I moved to a state where I knew pretty much no one. I had one friend that brought me into her group who I didn't really connect with, but joined for comfort. I brought tension to the one group of people in my life that I cared about, & I left my heart in Vegas. I got a job at Shelf Reliance that brought me friends of my own & a paycheck to bring home & had rent payed for. Life was life, & it was hard. Further down the road, it got harder, then worse, then better & then to the worst. 2010 was full of mountains that were extremely hard to climb. The worst part, was that I tried to climb these mountains without the help that has always been offered. It took me til December 29th to finally realized I could accept help.

Life in 2011 is different & so much better! Starting out with the first Sunday of the year. I went to church alone, & stayed all 3 hours & surrounded myself with friends. Sounds easy, but not for me. I don't like to be alone, so when my roommates all told me they were sick & I'd be going alone, I freaked. When I got there, I immediately scoped out friends & made in effort to meet people and extend a smile to everyone. Soon after that, I decided it was time to leave Shelf Reliance. It had been a good job & home to me for a good long year. People there know me. I'm comfortable & in charge (which so sadly I love) & it's always been there. But having every person there knowing & hanging onto my 2010 struggle, it is time to leave. As of yesterday, I will be working for 2 more weeks then starting my new job as a leasing agent in an apartment complex. (which I am so excited about) School started on Wednesday for me, & now that I have a new job, all of my classes have been changed around & I even signed up for an institute class!

I am extremely happy for the experience & lessons learned in 2010. But I couldn't be more happy to leave it behind. 2011 & I have already become best friends. At this very second, sitting on my bed in my church dress, listening to "come back home", & the smell of dark kiss surrounding me, I have no worries or problems. This second only. I know there are some to come, but It's okay because I'm ready to face then & concur them. Welcome 2011.

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Call me tacky if you must, but honestly he is the only one who has been & will always be there for me. He gives me comfort & direction & I will never be worthy enough to be to him as he has been to me.

Day 10 - A picture of someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

I don't think I can answer this question, simply because I don't see myself marrying anyone for a long while. Love isn't my friend right now.

Day 11 - Your celebrity crush

Need I say more?

Day 7&8

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

The typical answer. My parents have done so much for me. If you would have asked me a year ago, I would have had a completely different answer, but this past year they really did so much for me. I have out these poor parents through so much stress, I am probably the reason they have any sort of gray hair. My mom has become my best friend & my dad & I have actually grown a relationship. My mom just used to be that annoyance any teenager sees their parents as. But now, she literally knows everything that has ever happened in my life & has been so much support and guidance. My dad & I never had a strong relationship until now. I can call him & talk to him & really ask for anything & receive support & guidance from him.

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

They might possible kill me after posting this, but this picture brings back the funniest memories! I had gone away to Idaho for school, & on one of my breaks I came home & had Danielle sleep over. While I was in the shower the next morning, Alyson & Danielle made the funniest webcam videos on my laptop. To this day, I don't think I have ever laughed so hard at a webcam video. This was one of the pictures they left for me that still makes me laugh.

I missed a day.. Day 5&6

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you've been to

@ years ago My family & I had one of the best vacations to Hawaii. I was soo excited to go. We saw volcanoes, climbed waterfalls, went boogie boarding, shopping, the works. One of my favorite vacations.

Day 06 - A picture that shows your true self

I chose this picture because I think I'm a pretty simple person. This is a simple picture of me in California on the beach that I went to with one of my best friends, my little sister and my mom. I love yellow & I love smiling. Yea, this picture is definitely me.

Day 4

A habit I wish I didn't have

I buy things. Lets just go through my weekend of buying things. I went grocery shopping on Wednesday. Normal grocery shopping, spent about 35-40$. Friday, New years eve, My roommates & I wanted waffles for New years morning so I go to the store to buy waffle mix, come home 23$ later, without waffle mix. New years day; go to the mall to RETURN some boots. Came home with a new pair of boots(which I love), a brown cardigan, 2 dark kiss candles, & two dark kiss lotions. I buy things. I love the things I buy, but need not to buy so much!

day 3

My Craziest friend(s)

My two craziest friends tie. Shelleen Knudsen, my roommate, is friggin crazy. I have no idea what goes through her mind, but there is never a dull moment with that girl. She crazy! She steals knives from restuarants, opens the car door, while moving, because she's bloody hot, & says things compleetly out of wack! Danielle brings out the 5 year old in me haha. We have so much fun together when we're super hyper. When she gets hyper, she makes me hyper & there isn't a single moment we stand still. These girls be crazy.