love.love.love.

July25,2010:: I'll get to the top of my mountain. For a long time, it wasn't even in view, now..I'm close enough to smell the fresh air falling from it. I'm so close. This little set back I had only made me pull faster, & climb harder"

Last night Rachel & I sat outside my house for about 2 hours talking. I brought up my journals & how they have been my therapeutic comfort for the past few years & it got me curious to read again. This post above.. filled my heart with joy today. I remember writing it. I had so much faith, but still felt broken. I new it was possible to get out of the hole I was stuck in, but was determined to do so. There are so many other trials in this world that people face every day that have been harder than mine. But it doesn't make me any less strong. My trial was given to me because it's me. Our father in Heaven knew this would be hard for me, & he made it possible for me to conquer it. I conquered it. For a time, I let it conquer me. I got lost, & stuck in the one place I never wanted to be. I thought by the time I had turned 19 that I had conquered my "one lifes trial". Boy was I wrong. Still to this day I may not have even encountered my "lifes trial". But I guess that's something I won't know until it hits.

It all happens for a reason. I used to be friends with this guy that didn't believe me at all when I said that. He believed things just happened to happen. WRONG. Up til this point in my life, I can pinpoint (most) every purpose for every "happening".

Life is good now. I am happy. I am a happy girl! My brother,sister in law & babies are coming this week. I have my last day of my horrid job next week, head off to lake powell for the weekend with all the KERNS, then teach swim lessons for a few weeks, have my last dose of DISNEYLAND & the beach for a year & a half..then head to the Provo MTC on August 17th. Holy love. I am in love with my life.

&&&& I NOW HAVE 20/20 VISION! Thank you LASIK :)

Easter Sunday

I had an amazing Easter Sunday. I am so grateful for my brother Derek & his family & my other brother Evan. They are seriously the best brothers I could have ever asked for. I’ve already begun to cry just thinking about how much I am going to miss them when I move. When I first moved up here to Utah, I was going through a rough time. Evan used to get phone calls from me quite often, crying & needing him to come over & be with me.. Derek received phone calls asking for blessings and was always more than grateful to give them. They never judged me, or bad talked me about my decisions and always tried to help me out in the best ways they could. Derek & Emily took me into their family & I grew such a strong bond to the both of them.

Derek & I never really had the strongest relationship; now he’s one of my best friends. He has taken such good care of me while I’ve been up here. He’s helped me with school, money, friends, & although he may not know it; my testimony. He has given me words of wisdom that has stuck with me and has helped me to grow in so many ways.The same goes with Emily. She doesn’t feel like a sister in law to me; she feels like a sister. Someone at church today asked her if I was her sister and I nodded not even thinking about her being an in law. When she said I was Derek’s sister, I had to remind myself that she hasn’t always been my sister. I am so grateful for that family. Their two beautiful children are my world. Leaving them for 18 months will be one of the hardest things to do. They bring so much joy to my life. When Baby Taylor kisses me, I feel like everything in my life is okay. No problems, no worries. & Cohens smile..can light up the world. That kid is going to be a heartbreaker! He is so handsome.

Evan is by far one of my best friends as well & I am so thankful for him. He is the ideal big brother that looks out for me. HE hates boyfriends haha He has been so protective over me & I love it. Both my brothers were moved out by the time I began dating & I love that the “over protective big brother” is still around. He has helped me grow so much while up here and often made me realize a lot about myself.

Today was probably my most favorite day out of all the days I’ve spent in Utah. I spent the whole day with my family, and I got to focus on the resurrection and atonement more than usual. I am so grateful for this church & cannot wait to preach the word to all the people of Argentina. My mission call has been the greatest blessing in my life. When time gets rough & my mind begins to wander back to the past, I think of the people in Argentina. I think about their lives now, and what they will be like once they have the church in their lives. Hopefully I’ll be able to make that difference. I’ll pray each day to prepare the people for the word.

Happy Easter Everyone. I hope you realize all that you have!

A-Z day

I most defintetly stole this from Shelby. It's just an easier way to blog when there's too much to write about.

Age: 21

Bed size: Twin right now. Next week? QUEEN!

Chore you hate: I don't really hate cleaning.. I do however hate doing other peoples dishes.

Dogs: Belly baby! pure black pom.

Essential start of your day: pee.

Favorite color: Mustard. mm yellow :)

Gold or silver: I wish I cold pull off gold, but I can't so I like silver

Height: 6 ft. If you want to get real technical, 5'11 3/5.

Instruments I play (or have played): I used to play the piano which I'll be taking up again this summer. I also did the drums for a small while.

Job title: Leasing Consultant.

Kids: 4 or 6. Have to be even at Disneyland.

Live: Currently, Provo, Utah. Next week; Las Vegas, Nevada. my home & love :)

Mom's name: Sandi

Nickname: Keno, hermana haha

Overnight hospital stays: I don't think I have ever stayed overnight.

Pet peeve: When 22 year old guys from my apartment complex get their moms to call me because I'm not telling them what they want to hear.

Quote from a movie: " I'm suicidal."

"fill out these forms"

-It's kind of a funny story.

Right or left handed: Right.

Siblings: I have 2 older brothers, 1 older sister, 1 younger sister, 1 sister in law & 1 brother in law.

Time you wake up: usually around 7

Underwear: boy shorts.

Vegetables you dislike: all?

What makes you run late: i don't run late. That's not classy.

X-rays you've had done: Teeth.

Yummy food you make: Taco soup is what everyone asks me for.

Zoo animal: Penguin!

Happy Friday everyone!

My lovely Mission call, in SPANISH!

Ever have that feeling that something bad is going to happen, because everything in your life is way too good? That’s how I feel. I’m scared, but pretty confident that the Lord is going to protect me these next couple of months. I have been called to the Neuquen Argentina mission & have been called to report on August 17^th of 2011. I will be entering the Provo MTC a full time sister missionary to learn the beautiful language Spanish so that I may teach the people of Argentina! I have never been so blessed in my life.

So, many people (including myself) were confused when my mission call came to me in Spanish. Let me explain. Upon submitting my papers, there was a check box in which you would like your call to be printed in. Being Kendall Kerns, I may have over looked that one question, thinking it was asking what language I would like to learn. So I clicked Spanish. I did say I didn’t know any Spanish, but did also ask for it to be printed in Spanish. Yea… I did that.

SO, MORAL OF THE STORY: Read through your mission papers THOROUGHLY.

4 months is a long time to wait. I was anticipating to be gone by June, but obviously the Lord thinks otherwise. I’m excited for a long wait. My previous plan was to stay in Utah until about 2-3 weeks before I report, then move home. My new plan is to be moving home the end of the month & begin working at the Venetian again. It’s sad to leave my current job because I absolutely love it, but it is much more logical to go home. I won’t be paying for rent or food, & my mom can keep a better eye on my spending haha. Pathetic on my part, I know. My Venetian job also hired me on with a pay raise of 2 dollars. Which is 3 ½ dollars more than my current job. It’s logical. I’m excited to move home, but hating the wait! I've never been a patient girl. So I guess this is my first lesson?

ps. Really cool fact.

Angela Otis

This woman guessed the exact city in Argentina before I opened my call. It was so not coincidence that she of all people guessed it! Love her!

I'm going on a mission!

I CAN FINALLY SAY IT!

I AM GOING ON A MISSION!!!!!

MY PAPERS HAVE BEEN SUBMITTED!

I'LL WRITE MORE LATER

:)

Girlfriends? What happened to those?

I just wanted to upload some fun fotos of me & a few of the SHORT SUPPLY OF GIRLFRIENDS I HAVE! Is something wrong with me? Miriam & I were wanting to watch Charly today, but couldn't think of any girls we could call to ask if they had it. Why do I not have any girlfriends? I have like..3..maybe 4. I've never had a group of girlfriends & I am sick of it! Guys, you are not always fun! I was looking at my little sisters facebook page, & I am so stinkin jealous of her friends! Her & 4 other girlfriends are constantly together & they are so cute. I have NEVER had that..I've always had guy friends which can still be fun, but I want that girl time. Miriam & I have already begun to branch out in Relief Society..bleh..but we're getting there. We already have 2 girlfriends that like us! haha & they are super rad. We're not FB friends yet so I guess it's not official. But they are rad. One is a hair stylist & has cool color hair. They are pretty much identical to Miriam & I. Except the brunette is shorter in their case. The blonde is tall. Miriam & I are both tall.

Other than that, LIFE IS SO STINKIN GREAT RIGHT NOW!!!!!! I could do an entire page of exclamation marks right now to show my happiness for life at this moment. I am so excited, & grateful & happy! & healthy! I had a few doctors appointments this past week & I am proud to say all my doctors told me that I am perfectly healthy. I am doing all the right things with all parts of my body. How great is it to hear that they have no advice to give you because you're doing just fine? It's fantastic! I'm proud of myself. Also, I have bought many cute accessories recently & I have my eye on some new make up I'll try not to buy on Monday. Sephora, how I love you.

Have a great week!

Cooler Couleur - Full Version

BEFORE YOU LISTEN TO THIS SONG

TURN YOUR VOLUME UP

STAND UP

GET HYPED

ghetto video, just listen & love.

two timing decisions

Okay, it's been about a week since i last updated, which is probably because I haven't had time this week to even sleep. I remember I used to sleep a good 7-8 hours a night. Now, it's about 5-6. Either I got a life, or..no I got a life haha So anyways, Snowboarding is the business! Yes, the business. I went with a group of scattered level snowboarders. Some were pro, some were first timers. Miriam & I decided from the get go to stick together. We were about the same..sucky. So we started out pretty pathetic. We couldn't stand longer than 4 seconds. But thank goodness we are GIRLS! Boys don't get special treatment like we do. An angel from the heavens found us & randomly taught us to Snowboard! We were so good by our 3rd run!

So that was Wednesday. I can't remember anything else until Friday night when it all went down hill :(

We had an incident in our apartment Friday night. Saturday was the after effect. My roommate Libby is gone. Her room is empty, her cupboards are empty & she is gone. After Friday, her & her parents decided the best thing for her right now is to move home. As sad as it is, I'm happy she was able to make that decision. Libby is by far one of my best friends. She understands and accepts people for who they are. She's comforting and always held the spirit in our house. She has always been so honest & upfront with everyone she's ever met. Libby has helped me get through some tough times. I miss her so much already. Saying goodbye to her was hard, but good. I tried not to cry for her sake. I know how it is to say goodbye to something that you don't necessarily want to leave. & let me just say, the snow began to rapidly fall as she drove away & that was no coincidence. The Branbury got cold when she left :( I've never had a friend leave me. I've always been the one to leave. I miss her guts already & I'm sad every time I walk past her bedroom. That girl deserves the best guy out there! If I were a guy, I'd marry her. & I'd love & support that girl every day of my life!!! Miriam & I are all on our own now. The two babies of the fam bam. We got this.

Monday Funday!

While most people hate Mondays, I actually really Love them! You get to start out a brand new week in whatever way you want! Last weekend was very adventurous and way crazy. Event after event kept surprising me! But I am so happy it is Monday, because I can get in my routine. Monday mornings are my favorite because I get to wake up & go to the gym super early & not a soul is ever in my gym. It is mine, & I love it. I turn the news on, or blast some music & pump it! Then I come home, shower, & put together my green monster smoothie! It is fantastic. The I read some scriptures, feast upon the word! Then head to work. After work today I get to have FHE at Bishops. I love my Bishop. He seriously is the most awesome man I have ever met (besides my dad!) HE always has that power to uplift & inspire me. He has brought me so much hope to my life & completely turned things around for me.

I love Monday. It gives me the chance to prove to myself that I can make it through another week happily. & I totally will! I'm so proud of my decisions lately. I've made some big decisions in my life & always felt scared & unsure at the time. But now, I am finally seeing the blessings & opportunities coming from those decisions!

Anyways! Here's my fanfreakingtastic green monster smoothie!

Ps..yea the pictures are in backwards order, but I don't have time to fix it, so deal with it.

1 FROZEN banana

1-2 handfuls of baby spinach. fresh. Don't be cheap & go fresh because you'll get a chunky spinach smoothie.

1 cup fat free milk

how ever much you want frozen fruit. I like the tropical. Mangoes, pineapple, & starawberry, although this specific smoothie has no strawberry in in.

2 tsp oil. I only do this part because it's important to get those 2 tsp into your daily diet, & I have no idea how to get it in any other way. You can't taste it, don't worry.

Next, I'll be adding flax seed just as soon as I figure out what it looks like & where to buy it. Start your day out with a green monster smoothie & life will be energetic & happy!

Happy Freaking Monday People!

.HFMP.

Oh happy daaaayyyy

This is what happens when you put a Kendall in a room & tell her to write a talk for sacrament. I soo did not want to write this talk for some reason. Bishop asked me on Wednesday, & I literally didn't have a single time to even think about what I was going to talk about. I had a subject, but no words came to mind & I wasn't in my apartment all week! Luckily I was able to finish everything off this morning & my talk is done.

So, LIFE IS GOOOD. I'm super excited about a few things going down lately, but I'm not going to talk about it just yet. There is still some..finalizing to do? Work is great, minus the fact that I work with something that tries to STEAL ALL MY LEADS! It's going down Monday morning. Church is AWESOME. I've never felt stronger. & my friends; oh how I adore them.

I've decided this week, that I am going to cook! I love cooking, but I never do it because it takes too long. & it's expensive as crap to be healthy! I have to shop at least twice a week to continuously have fruits and veggies. I haven't started my spinach shakes yet, but I have all I need & I'll be trying that tomorrow! I'm excited.

Well, there is my update for the week. Ready for another great one :)

Scatter Brain

I've noticed a pattern in my life. & I kinda like it. This job has done me so much good. I love that I actually have stability now. Every day with Shelf Reliance was different & uncertain & it made me unhappy. I was off everyday at 2, but when I got home, I was never in a good mood or had the energy to do anything. I feel alive now! I work more, but it's given me the energy I need to make it through my day with a good attitude.

Also, I've been noticing a lot of new facts about myself these days.
-It took moving to Utah to get me addicted to caffeine.
-I love to work out; hating getting ready to work out.
-My hair is awesome..Call me conceited, but I went to hell & back to get this hair.
-I am happier when I write. I write in my journal almost every day, & when I don't, I'm not as enthusiastic about life.
-Sometimes, I do like to be alone.
-I have honey nut cheerios with sliced bananas every single morning of my life. Sometimes for dinner.

I love that today is Sunday, but I wish I had gotten an extra cherry DP with real lime to hold me over til tomorrow. Last night was the adult session of Stake Conference, & today's session is at 2. As irritable as it was for me to sit through 2 hours of it yesterday, I will do my best at being reverent this session. No matter how bad my anxiety/OCD/PMS kicks in; whatever that was last night..it was bad.


Last thought!
If you are looking for a good way to get your 2 (recommended) teaspoons of oil in a day, put it in a fruit smoothie. You won't taste it a bit! Does anyone know a good way to get veggies in your diet? =/ I hate veggies..

Truth be told

Yea, truth be told I don't update as much now that I am back on facebook.

So..truth be told..I have a few things to update on.

1. Tomorrow is my favorite day of the week again! (except for Sunday of course) I get to sleep in, go to the temple, get a facial, meet with my trainer, then have a Relief Society Retreat. Anyways, so I was thinking the other day..I was having a down day; which has not happened in a long freaking time, & I was just thinking about how happy I USED to be. It bummed me out for sure. Until I started thinking about my life in general as of right now.

IT MADE ME SO HAPPY!

I have never been so happy with myself in my life. I have never be so spiritually grounded. I have never held a worthy temple recommend and attended the temple on a weekly basis. I've never made it habit to wake up earlier than usual EVERY SINGLE DAY to have time to read the scriptures and pray. I've never been happier. Truth be told..

2. I SOLD A CONTRACT TODAY! I AM A LEASING CONSULTANT! Heck to the motha freakin yes I am! Funny story about that though. I have been helping this guy Manuel out trying to find an apartment for about a week now. So my friend Kami & I have been talking about him all week. We've been wanting him to sign with us soo bad so we could be friends with him because he's hilarious. So anyways, he came in today, & she was off so she called me to chat while I was working & he happened to be there at the time signing his contract..& she was talking to me joking around saying stuff like,

"Are you going to marry him?"

"Are you gonna make him make you babies?"

"You love him huh?"

Yea well..as soon as I got off I looked up at him & he said, "She talks loud..." & then winked at me...AHHH I was so embarrassed! I looked down so fast to keep from turning red! In the end..it was hilarious..& Kami ended up buying me a cupcake..So, overall..good day at work.

3. Did you know it is now suggested you eat 5-6 fruits/veggies a day?? That's a lot! It USED to be 3-4. Today I had a banana, orange, apple & carrots..I don't know what else to do!

The.end.

Don't ever let your prayin' knees get lazy

& LOVE LIKE CRAZY

(go ahead & click it, it'll take you to a handsome man

with a backwards cap, man beard & guitar)

It was an absolute must that I write today because today was FANFREAKINGTASTIC! I didn't have school or work today, so I was able to sleep in til 9, lay in my bed with a bowl of cereal & my dear friend Pandora, go to the temple, meet with my trainer at the gym, get all dolled up to go shopping with Miriam & got a cute skirt, some accessories & some black floral printed tights. Then to end the night right, went to Institute which was JUST the lesson for me. Happy happy day.

So, my title today does have a meaning..I have been listening to this song for the past two days, & it still hasn't gotten old. I am in love with this song. I even have it written on my white board in front of my bed. Don't ever let your prayin' knees get lazy..that is honestly the only way to make it through these lives of ours! Pray, pray & pray some more, because not a single person on this earth can make it on their own. I know I've tried..& it's hard. It doesn't work. Today at the temple, may have been one of the happiest times in my life, because I was able to reflect on my life & really see what I've done to make it better. It's prayer. Praying for guidance, forgiveness, comfort..it's all in there. I'm lovin' life crazzzzyyy!!!

Basement to Roof Access

Glory Glory Hallelujiar. Let me start out by giving a brief description of my last job. I started Shelf Reliance in January of 2010. Hated the job by March 2010. I was up at 5:25 every morning, at work by 6, off at 2, exhausted by 6, in bed by 9/10ish. The owner or our company treated us like slaves, & didn't feel it important we ever had breaks. We were pushed to make numbers, and when numbers were reached, the people that deserved it, didn't recieve a reward. I on the other had, did receive the rewards I didn't deserve. I did the same amount of work as everyone else & had a MUCH better pay. Yea, that's not the usual complaint people have, but it bothered me so much how everyone was treated. I was head supervisor over the "Homeparty" products for Shelf Reliance. When I was first promoted in July, the job was great. I was treated and respected as a supervisor and I was good at my job. Gave it about a month or two, and I was no longer respected. I had no responsibility whatsoever but kept the title and was treated like a child. We were kept in a freezing warehouse, wore gross clothes every day because we got FILTHY, worked with dirty, unrespectful men and had drama like no other.

THANK YOU BLAKE WELLER for loving me.

Back in January I made good friends with the front office guy Blake. He helped me get in my apartment & has helped me so much with everything at the Branbury. When he told me he was leaving, I applied & he put in his good word for me, & I got the job! Here's the jist of my new job.

I'm a leasing consultant,head over marketing, in charge of all onsite ward Bishops scheduling and many other tasks that I still cannot explain haha I actually get to dress up for my job(which I've never done before) & I get to work with all older people; NO DRAMA! I love it. I get to actually talk to people & help them with whatever their needs are at the Branbury. I get to help people figure out housing when they are in a rut like I was when I first moved here. I love my job. I have a lot of responsibility which keeps me busy, and the best part of it all?.... I get to walk across the street to work.

ahh life is great. Funny story though. Day 2 on the job & I got my first tour! 2 guys..with pretty faces & rockin bods, came in & I basically gave them all the details & info on contracts. They asked for a tour, so as I'm taking them out I straight up tell them that they were my first. They were funny about it, teased me a little then we began walking to the "model room" for the tour. I have a master key so when I got to the room & opened it up..IT WAS SOMEONES APARTMENT! Soo embarrassing.. luckily, the guys were cool & just laughed at me...histarically .. goodness gracious my life.

So I've stepped up in life :)

New job, Started school, attending institute, loving life like crazy!

Head over Heels

Last Saturday was a big day for me. Shelbie & I went shopping & I, Kendall Kerns, bought my very first pair of heels. If any of you reading this blog know me, I am tall. A tid but under 6 foot (quote from my recent doctor) So I'm tall, & can be pretty self conscious about it. Not as bad as I used to be, but it still sucks to be standing in a crown of people all under 5'6. So Shelbie & I are at Forever Young, my favorite shoe store, & I see some hot red heels that I had to try on. I put them on & I loved them! I was struttin myself around that store like I was some kind of celebrity til my pathetic side kicked in..

So there's this persooooon I really don't want to be taller than. So I was super nervous to buy them because I know myself & if I ended up being taller than them, I would be so self conscious. But I bought them anyways..Come Sunday.. I wore them; struttin around my ward & was so happy to find that they are perfect! I am no taller than anyone I really care about being taller than. They make me a perfect 6'2 & I am perfectly fine with that. It was fan-freaking-tastic. So, I just want everyone to know that, I Kendall Kerns, own a pair of hot red heels that I love.

ps. Libby & I are going to Vegas this weekend & we will be making an appearance at Stoneys. & I could possibly be in these red heels I so proudly talk about. kay byee :)

Happy Days

Top noter: I've decided to stop the stupid picture thing. I don't like it. I guess I don't have the will power to keep up with something like I thought I did. But, I'm happy to say that it has gotten me to regularly get on here, so I think I'll be able to keep up with that.

Life is so good right now! Except for at work. Since everyone knows I'm leaving next week, they haven't been easy on me. Mainly just one person. & I know it's only because they are sad I'm leaving, but it still sucks. For a couple of days I was worried I made the wrong decision about my job, but thankfully I have a mom who always cheers me up. My plan for the past couple of months is to move home to Vegas in August to start school at UNLV for hospitality, but last week I was so close to just packing up & going. There are so many things keeping me here, but so many things begging for me to go back to Vegas. I miss Vegas so much. Living there. My family, the weather, the comfort, the shopping(lord knows malls suck in Utah!) I really miss it. So often though, I freak myself out about the future & I'm sick of it! She told me to relax, because come August, I may be so in love with life, in Utah at my new job & in school, that I won't wont to leave. & it's true. I never thought I would like Utah the way I do now.

"Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting, that is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow-that is patience.

I promise to start being patient with life. I do not need to stress over the future right now. I'm 21 & don't need to be freaking out about what's going on in August. As long as I do what I need to be doing right now; which is school, church, working & having a 21 year olds life.

I copied this from Shelby Lou's site. I just wanted to post a few loves because life is full of love!

1. I love my music.

2. I love winter clothes. Beanies, scarves, mittens, coats.

3. I love the overly positive people that make up this world.

4. I love laughing hysterically at something that no one else thinks is funny & then see them so suddenly begin to crack up.

5. I love that the world outside my window is pink right now because the sunset is reflecting off the snow.

have a great weekend everyone! I know I will :)

Ps: this is my song for the day. I heard it at work & have been singing it ever since.

Click hurr

Day 16 - Someone you would want to switch lives w/ for one day and why

There's a few things I need to know that only Lady Gaga can tell me.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Gallon Challenge :) Only, it'll have to be 1% of course.

Day 14 - Picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

I don't care how cliché it is to say I could't imagine life without my mom. She's my best friend.

On a side note; Is the first week of school this stressful for EVERYONE?! I'm going to die early because of all the stress school has brought me. i have anxiety every time I even think about it. It's January..what 12th? & I already feel like I want to drop out just to prove that I won't handle this crap UVU is throwing at me. I would like to punch one of the administration in the face. & then I would drop parking pass permits from 80dolla to 30dolla. Stupid & ridiculous if you ask me. i think I'm ready to just be done with everything. But then again, if I were done with everything, I would be in the same exact boat I was in exactly one year ago today. No school, just working, doing nothing. I've already decided to make that change this year. blah. School can suck it.

Can it be next friday already? Libby & I are going to Vegas, & I'm stoked. I won't be able to go for a long time once I start my new job, so this trip better be well worth it. Peace&blessins chilren. Peace&blessins.

A Picture of something you hate

Stupid in-n-out. It's completely overrated & overpopulated. There hasn't been a single time I;ve lived in Provo, driven by the one one University & not seen a line backed up so far that it begins to wrap around the joint. It's not even good in my opinion. The shakes; yea, they're alright because they're ice cream & shakes can't go wrong. Get over it people, it's slightly less money than 5 guys & worst quality.

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

It's very possible that I may have an addiction. It all started when I saw that they were 8/$1.00 at Maceys. From there, I was a goner. For my birthday, my lovely roommates decorated my room with a bajillion balloons, streamers, & 8 dollars worth of airheads. That's equivalent to 64 airheads! It was fantastic. They hid them throughout all my room so I was finding them a week later. Needless to say, they are gone; & went pretty fast. But to my defense, there wasn't a single person that entered my room & didn't leave without one or two airheads.

New year

My one & only resolution of 2011;

To make 2011 the best year of my life

Day 9 of this year has come & I can say, so far I've made that happen. 2010 was hard; as it has been for all. I moved to a state where I knew pretty much no one. I had one friend that brought me into her group who I didn't really connect with, but joined for comfort. I brought tension to the one group of people in my life that I cared about, & I left my heart in Vegas. I got a job at Shelf Reliance that brought me friends of my own & a paycheck to bring home & had rent payed for. Life was life, & it was hard. Further down the road, it got harder, then worse, then better & then to the worst. 2010 was full of mountains that were extremely hard to climb. The worst part, was that I tried to climb these mountains without the help that has always been offered. It took me til December 29th to finally realized I could accept help.

Life in 2011 is different & so much better! Starting out with the first Sunday of the year. I went to church alone, & stayed all 3 hours & surrounded myself with friends. Sounds easy, but not for me. I don't like to be alone, so when my roommates all told me they were sick & I'd be going alone, I freaked. When I got there, I immediately scoped out friends & made in effort to meet people and extend a smile to everyone. Soon after that, I decided it was time to leave Shelf Reliance. It had been a good job & home to me for a good long year. People there know me. I'm comfortable & in charge (which so sadly I love) & it's always been there. But having every person there knowing & hanging onto my 2010 struggle, it is time to leave. As of yesterday, I will be working for 2 more weeks then starting my new job as a leasing agent in an apartment complex. (which I am so excited about) School started on Wednesday for me, & now that I have a new job, all of my classes have been changed around & I even signed up for an institute class!

I am extremely happy for the experience & lessons learned in 2010. But I couldn't be more happy to leave it behind. 2011 & I have already become best friends. At this very second, sitting on my bed in my church dress, listening to "come back home", & the smell of dark kiss surrounding me, I have no worries or problems. This second only. I know there are some to come, but It's okay because I'm ready to face then & concur them. Welcome 2011.

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Call me tacky if you must, but honestly he is the only one who has been & will always be there for me. He gives me comfort & direction & I will never be worthy enough to be to him as he has been to me.

Day 10 - A picture of someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

I don't think I can answer this question, simply because I don't see myself marrying anyone for a long while. Love isn't my friend right now.

Day 11 - Your celebrity crush

Need I say more?

Day 7&8

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

The typical answer. My parents have done so much for me. If you would have asked me a year ago, I would have had a completely different answer, but this past year they really did so much for me. I have out these poor parents through so much stress, I am probably the reason they have any sort of gray hair. My mom has become my best friend & my dad & I have actually grown a relationship. My mom just used to be that annoyance any teenager sees their parents as. But now, she literally knows everything that has ever happened in my life & has been so much support and guidance. My dad & I never had a strong relationship until now. I can call him & talk to him & really ask for anything & receive support & guidance from him.

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

They might possible kill me after posting this, but this picture brings back the funniest memories! I had gone away to Idaho for school, & on one of my breaks I came home & had Danielle sleep over. While I was in the shower the next morning, Alyson & Danielle made the funniest webcam videos on my laptop. To this day, I don't think I have ever laughed so hard at a webcam video. This was one of the pictures they left for me that still makes me laugh.

I missed a day.. Day 5&6

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you've been to

@ years ago My family & I had one of the best vacations to Hawaii. I was soo excited to go. We saw volcanoes, climbed waterfalls, went boogie boarding, shopping, the works. One of my favorite vacations.

Day 06 - A picture that shows your true self

I chose this picture because I think I'm a pretty simple person. This is a simple picture of me in California on the beach that I went to with one of my best friends, my little sister and my mom. I love yellow & I love smiling. Yea, this picture is definitely me.

Day 4

A habit I wish I didn't have

I buy things. Lets just go through my weekend of buying things. I went grocery shopping on Wednesday. Normal grocery shopping, spent about 35-40$. Friday, New years eve, My roommates & I wanted waffles for New years morning so I go to the store to buy waffle mix, come home 23$ later, without waffle mix. New years day; go to the mall to RETURN some boots. Came home with a new pair of boots(which I love), a brown cardigan, 2 dark kiss candles, & two dark kiss lotions. I buy things. I love the things I buy, but need not to buy so much!

day 3

My Craziest friend(s)

My two craziest friends tie. Shelleen Knudsen, my roommate, is friggin crazy. I have no idea what goes through her mind, but there is never a dull moment with that girl. She crazy! She steals knives from restuarants, opens the car door, while moving, because she's bloody hot, & says things compleetly out of wack! Danielle brings out the 5 year old in me haha. We have so much fun together when we're super hyper. When she gets hyper, she makes me hyper & there isn't a single moment we stand still. These girls be crazy.